First of all I want to express my deepist gratitude to Emily G, Todd (of cousre, and every single one of the LP family for the good timesd from ice day i. Todd has provided a most awesome adult play ground for everyone these 12 ? years. i love all you guys and it has ben really good times.
from now on, my words will be riddled with mistakes. and odd formate, please forgive.
My good friend, Em G, was correct and bless her soul for posting this thread
As she said, i have critical med issue.
long story short, i have end -stage cancer of the larynx. But I'm riddled with cancer tumors now is has been spreading all over.
i have been treating it myself since visible tumor appeard last Aug . I did my own research. I was only off by an inch or so in my personsl diagnosis and prognosis. If you know who movie crictic roger ebert is, check out his medicsl story to give example of what is entailed with this illness.
i was unaware that had to get biopsy to qualify for finacnial aid. foumd out later that was not needed ($6000). a cat scan alone gsve me diagnosis. Very upset at the invasive and uneeded biopsy. They literally signed my own death certificate.
What happens with a biopsy is that cutting, poking drives cancer cells into the body, so there is guanteed metastis.
I have sqamous cell cancer and it's progression has been very aggrssive .
But i signed waiver under duress. he will only get my 500 downpayment. Root cause was miscommicat ion beteen my attending physian and surgeon and me.
heres what hapend : 2 days after biopsy had a nassive bleedout, squiritng blood like a cut artery. appox blood losts one half pint. time to stop bleeding about 15 minuts. a few days later had another massive bleedout. time to stop bleeding 45 ninuts This one landed me in ER and worse blod loss .
here's the cool psrt. I was the one who stopped the bleeding wtihin 6 minutes! i asked my hospice nusre (who happen to be there at the time) to sprinkle Cayenne Pepper very liberally over wound, then we applied pressue for about 6 minutes with a absorbent hand towel. when towel was removed bleeding stopped totally before paramedics arrived. (it does not sting AT ALL. it also works for internal bleeding and stopping a heart attacks in minutes. When bleeding has totally stopped , apply another heavy sprinkling of cayenne pepper. Dress the wound and leave the dressing in place for two days. Everyone shoud have in their first aid kit. )
These last few days do not compute as our friend doctor spock would say. recouping from blood loss in my current condition is critical. but the irony of it is, it has been incredible experince that i'm going thru. the trauma has opened my pineal gland. My body is being loaded up with DMT,( whichi is the body's way of dealing with sudden body trauma. )
i've had massive support these last couple weeks. i'm in hospice care. i firmly believe in the power of prayer and its working for me! i've always had a guardian angel who has saved my life on two occasions. recently i "met" her...lol
here is the deal. this sudden improvement is not logical. me and my family had me pegged as dead man walking . 2 days death expectncy.
when i was flooded with DMT there was noticible turn-around.
including hallucinations, new psychic abilitiies, mental deficincies, extreme short term memory loss,and extreme dyslexa and spelling . having communication problrms, etc.
2 days ago had the break thru. since then , I havent slept for the last t 48 hours. but im having "einstein brain".
my psyhic energy is thru the roof. and my chi energy has been buiding sincd the beginning of diagnosis.
IL players should immediatly start betting trip 5-5-5 . conseutive bets every single pick three draw avaible (but not My3) until it hits.
it will hit soon. i'm betting heavy.
i've been having real cool hallucinations . auditory , mental and real-time. When i look at a surface i can see the patterns movement on the surface. my perception of reality is very crisy abd sharp and lucid. my orignal post was lost in the compuer ether, so this is an attemt to replce my original.it took me ten hours to generate . i'unabke to repeat oriinalnal post.
main point is my deep gratude for your prayers. this will probably be my last post until i pass. I will be posting predictions on the IL prediction boardfor the duraition. knock on wood, I may be experciening a miracle in progrress. more on that later if posible.
much love to all of you and thanks for the memories. i will be unable to reply to each and every one of you but i'll read thru them all.
i'd prefer not to deal with pm's , and forums postimgs regarding my situation, I simply am unable to respond.. your prayers are working. this will be my last posting for a while until i can re-establish my communication abilities. I will still be posting daily predictions on the il predition thrread.
gotta go now, will update as much as possibe.
please forgive lengthy response and mistakes.
love,
-rick g