Anybody playing lottery out of revenge?


 I do.

 My life was shattered 9 years ago. I tried to dust it off and rise again, but I alway failed. I still vividly remember the faces of people who destroyed my life.

 My psychosomatic pain started on January 2005. I couldn't function at all. The pain started when I learned about one of them who slept her way through a high-profile corporate job, a car designer. I couldn't eat and sleep. I desperately yearned for exit but it didn't come. On August 2005 I had a dream and one old woman in the dream said I would win the lottery. Since then, I have religiously played lottery. When the pain didn't stop, I attempted to took my own life on March 2007, two months after I saw the six numbers in my dream.

 After the suicide attempt, my pain was gone. But my rage remained the same. I still played the lottery.

 One of my friends is a screenwriter. He and I have brainstormed for a story and came up with one. It is about a lottery winner whose life was devastated by a group of people long before he becomes a winner and the lottery winner gets a hold of portable nuclear weapons from Russian Mafia, using his winning prize. In the story, the lottery winner also hires contract killers to take out the families of people who destroyed his life.

 My friend asked me if I would do the same thing when I won the big lottery jackpot. I said "Hell no."

 "What are you gonna do?"

 "I am taking my life story to Oprah and People Magazine."

time*treat's avatar - radar

ROFL I suppose there would be a certain percentage who have a few bars of "I will survive" playing in their heads as they buy their tickets.

ThatScaryChick's avatar - giphy11resized

I can't say what I would do exactly, but it depends on the amount won. If it was a lot, I would retire and I would allow my mom to retire and I would get to help myself and those closest to me do the things that we can't do at the moment.

I'm not playing out of revenge though. I'm playing for the chance of being financial set. There have been people who have hurt me in my life and I understand wanting revenge, but what is that old saying? "Living well and being happy is the best revenge." To me this is how I get back at those who have hurt me.

I hope one day you are able to let go of the pain that these people caused you. I do know how it feels to be consumed by anger by how others treat you. I've been there. But at some point, one must say enough is enough. Don't let these type of people hold you down, don't let the past consume you. Because really, if you don't let go of the pain, it will consume you and take you down. It almost did me. Fortunately, I have a wonderful family and specifically mother who saved me. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be here.

It does sounds like you have some great ideas going for you though and you should use that to your advantage. You don't need the lottery to get your script published, you just need to do a lot of hard work and get out there. Have you heard of Diablo Cody? She posts on a message board I frequent (way before she became famous) and she recently won an Oscar for her movie "Juno". She used to be a stripper and she wrote a script and had it published and she was considered a nobody. It can be done without winning the lottery.

I wish you luck and I hope everything works out for you ambelamba.

justxploring's avatar - villiarna

Just in case your post was not written tongue-in-cheek, I suggest you get serious psychiatric help.  If you can't afford it, then call a local center and see if counseling is available. 

On the other hand, you might just have an idea for a new video game!  You get to electronically pick 6 numbers and, if you win, the jackpot is a chance to blow up your enemies with nuclear weapons.  The problem with nuclear weapons is that there are never any winners! 


You do have a problem - if you are troubled with in your  life surroundings , job , family ect ---- move start anew dont dwell in the pass move on think of your self ,  but your post does tie in with pass post as far as to how to rub it into your fellow workers and you last fleeting moments at work before you retire and those who you feel did you ill  wrong.  A measure of insight of being a class act after winning a lottery winfall --- less said is like a dash of salt on a open wound. Be bold but quit iwith your new found wealth --share your news with your co-workers and  then take them out to a big supper ---aaaah  style , they will appreciate your kindness then relize later ....da your now retired and they are still working ho .  To the ex  .... show them what they miss out on ...spoil your new mate and new life style , enough said with out words . Your way of revenge will or could end you up in the pen with you paying Bubba to not soap your back side.   "BE SMART AND DO THE CLASS ACT THING "   

hearsetrax's avatar - alien on_computer.jpg

just my .02

I know what it feels to be screwed over and its sometimes the reason I play

but as the others have stated ... U got the makings for a good video game and if U ever do get that lucky......

its better to forgive and forget and try to be the bigger person

but till then give yer self the widdle present

find out whar these people live and or move too and buy and assemble the 101solar powered E-crickets ...  the rest writes it's self Red Devil

konane's avatar - wallace
In response to justxploring

Justx absolutely brillaint idea!!! Party How about an online game like many others available now with multitudes of choices for winners?  Sounds like a money maker to me!!

BTW it's much easier to win if you come from positive emotions than negative ones.  Big Grin Angel

rcbbuckeye's avatar - Lottery-062.jpg

I'm having a really bad month at work and it's just about all I can think about despite having a daughter that graduated from high school last Wed, (2 down, 1 to go!!!). But when I read a post like this one, it makes me realize that I am very fortunate to have what I have. Ambelamba, I hope that you be proactive to find and get help. Life is too short to be in pain, and to focus on who may have hurt you. I am not a psychologist, but I have found that when I focus on bad things in my life to where it is all I think about, then it becomes a "comfort zone" for lack of a better term. It just feeds on itself. Find help, and focus on being happy, and finding things that make you happy. Good luck.

tntea's avatar - Lottery-059.jpg

        The Awakening

A time comes in your life when you finally get it…When in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out  ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes, you begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening. You realize that it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that I am not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tail endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate of approve of who or what you are… and that’s OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process, a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn’t do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it’s not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realise that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your thick head. And you begin to sift through all the crap you’ ve been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and were you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought in to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your instincts.

You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don’t know everything: it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say No. You learn that the only cross to bear is the on you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project you needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more loveable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change so it is with love…And you learn that you don’t have the right to demand love on your terms…Just to make you happy. And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely… And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you “stack up”.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK…And that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want. And that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realisation that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won’t settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch… and in the process, you internalise the meaning of self-respect.

And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So, you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve… and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working towards making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it’s OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time, FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. And you learn to fight for you life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes, bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasion you learn not to personalise things. You learn that God isn’t punishing you or failing to answer you prayers. It’s just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state  the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never settle for less than your heart’s desire. And you hang a wind chime outside you window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side, you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.           

                                                                  Written by: Michael Jenkins

tntea's avatar - Lottery-059.jpg
In response to rcbbuckeye

Congrats to your daughter graduating.  Please give yourself a big pat on the back for me.   Got 2 down and 1 to go..  Hang in there the time will come. 


I remember when my last graduated.   I was so proud of her.. and I gave myself a pat on the back.  LOL   It was a rough last year.

Sandra Dee's avatar - dandy

revenge isn't what draws me to the lottery, just the idea of being debt free and affording the things i want - BUT it wouldn't hurt being able to look good and drive nice in front of whomever you're hating on .. that's what i think of in terms of revenge if winning .. but dude [ambelemba] yours is on an entirely different scheme of thought - that much anger/hatred/vengence can't be good for the mind, no? No Nod

rcbbuckeye's avatar - Lottery-062.jpg
In response to tntea

Thank you!!! My oldest daughter grad from college in 2000, and it was one of the highlights of my life. She has since gotten married and made me a grandpa. My other daughter is going on to college, and my son graduates from high school in 2011. Really, I am blessed. I sometimes complain about my typical teenagers, but they are happy, healthy, good kids.

four4me's avatar - gate1
In response to ambelamba

While most of us all have had dramatic failings in the past some recover by themselves and some need counseling. Sounds to me like you need closure on your past. Playing the lottery should not be the only means to an end. Feeling like playing the lottery out of revenge is an awkward feeling. Not normal. Playing the lottery is an outlet for some but it can also be an addiction.

Most lottery players are playing the lottery in hopes of winning the big jackpot. Millions of people every week suffer a big let down when they don't win. Yet they rise up to face the challenge for the next draw. If playing the lottery is causing you mental pain give it a break or just play the jackpot games.

While big dreams do come true sometimes they don't often come true for most people. I don't think there's a single lottery player who hasn't subconsciously dreamed of winning the lottery. Every time we plop down bucks for the lottery we all hope we might win something but the facts are the facts there are more losers than winners and playing the lottery shouldn't be a means to and end.

Success isn't measured by how much money you have it's measured by your achievements in life. Might be time for you to pursue your career once again or change careers and follow a different path

EZMoney's avatar - weedss04lx1

Money doesnt buy happiness but it can buy the best revenge.  When I win, Im giving it all away.  Yall probably wouldnt understand but it would give me great satisfaction and a feeling of revenge against a few people who TRIED to destroy me.


 I just wonder why none of you are bothered by the blackmarket stray nuke part.

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